This thing called photography zine
An incoherent rambling.
Access my zine here: Roots: A walk around Angono
Its been a long time coming. I have dreaded to finish this passion project because I kind of lost my vision. I didn’t have any plan in place or a storyboard to follow. I just had my guts and my inner craving to create.
What does it even mean to create? Trust me when I say that I struggle with authenticity. There’s a version of me that liked to be praised but didn’t actually felt like she deserved to be in that position. There’s a part of me that craves affirmation, to be idolized, to be someone’s role model. I’m hardly any of those people. I’m just me. And that’s what I kept telling myself while walking around Angono, taking photos and reminiscing my childhood and teenage years. I think that’s what helped me stay authentic as well in creating this thing called photography zine. I became a child again just eager to see what my hometown has to offer and then a teenager, realizing that I have already made the most of what my hometown has to offer.
In restrospect, I didn’t actually want to finish this passion project. Because it meant I had to start a new one, or find a new fixation to busy myself with. But to be honest, its because I’m kind of getting tired of being in Angono. I want to get out but I can’t or I don’t want to? That, I’m still figuring out. What really pushed me to finish this zine was the fact that I’m turning 24 in 2 days. Birthdays are a good time to say farewell right? To start anew? My poetic ass just wanted something dramatic, I guess.
My 23rd year of existence has been nothing but a whole journey of learning, making mistakes, re-learning lessons I thought I had already engraved in my soul, making mistakes again, and on the cycle goes. I can’t say I hated it. It was fun discovering myself and re-discovering parts of me I thought I had lost. For example, I realized that I crave connections but I don’t really know how to sustain one. So, in the form of substack entries and multiple instagram accounts, I decided to connect. To create. To show. To perform in the most authentic way possible. Am I making sense?
This photography zine is just a byproduct of me craving connections. Trust me when I say that even I was surprised that I was able to finish this but, I guess that’s what happens when you enjoy doing and not thinking about anything else. Now that I’m turning 24, I treat this zine as a commemoration of things I’m always going to come back to as I take a step further into adulthood and see what other passion projects I’m going to start— and actually finish. But hey, creating doesn’t mean you have to finish it right? *finger guns*
Access my zine here: Roots: A walk around Angono
NOT A MF ZINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UR CREATIVITY ASTOUNDS ME
Rizal Supremacy talaga \m/